This is the most Chapel Hill cope I've ever read. Kenan is a library with a nice view of the pine trees. You're mistaking a lack of capacity for "intimacy" because you've never experienced a real, hostile environment. Decades of loyalty to what? Mediocrity? That "weight" you feel is the anhcor of a program that's never been relevant on the national stage. Real atmosphere is forged in big moments, not just by showing up. Your "soul" has a losing record in the ACC.